Strength

"30th June 2010 - a diary day reflection

I try every day to live life to its fullest but it is so, so difficult.
I try every day to see the joy in my family, in my life, in me.
I try each day to search for the littlest, smallest glimpse of joy.
There are days when I ache for the search to be fruitful, when I ache to find the joy somewhere withing my breaking heart, within my discombobulated life.
I try each day to be grateful - and I am so very grateful for so many things but I am finding it increasingly hard to express my gratitude.
I try every day to smile; to be present; to be happy.
Life is difficult though.
I don't think that I ever appreciated how difficult life could be.
I know now that I have a difficult journey ahead of me and that I need to learn how to live each day and treasure every moment that I have, that my family have."



I stumbled across this entry last night as I flicked randomly through my diary.  It told me of the journey I am on, but also of how far I have come.  Somedays it doesn't feel as if life has moved on, but it has and, despite everything, I am stronger.  At times like this, that's exactly what I need to try and remember:  I am strong and stronger is possible.